2018 was an incredibly filled miraculous year for me. I can’t believe it just thinking back on what has happened.
I started 2018 in a broken relationship, no sense of direction when it came to my career and 50% of liquids in my body was alcohol. Not exactly a great start to life is it. I struggled for the first few weeks to figure out exactly what i’m doing with my life, but the more I stopped to really think and pay attention to where I am at, what I like and don’t like the more I felt a desire grow in me, to change the direction of my life.
I don’t know what this, if this is what the true meaning of healing is.
I have carried so much shame in my life. I have hated the things I have done, I hated the thoughts I had and the words I said, I have hated the things that have been done to me and the things I allowed to happen to me. At some points I have hated myself..
DM, DM, DM. I love this man but my God he can be frustrating.
this man has literally invaded my world and then stood there and said nope, that’s not it. He’s challenged everything about me and my past and still has questions.
Somehow I managed to move interstate, 1000 or so km without much of a fuss or noise.
This move seems like quite a big deal, a big change and a big everything to everyone else except me. I’m trying not to make a fuss out of it but I really don’t understand what seems so drastic about it. The way I see it, I had nothing keeping me in Sydney, I got offered a better job, both in the substantial work and the pay and I was really unhappy in the city.
This has to be the most bizzare but interesting thing I ever came across, DM likes asking me why, why I do what I do and why I am the way I am. No one has ever questioned me in that way.
So in the middle of a heated conversation he asked me why am I simplistic, why do I wanna live a simple life? I never questioned it to be honest, it’s always been right there inside of me.
“You were taught, with regard to your former way of life, to put off your old self, which is being corrupted by its deceitful desires; to be made new in the attitude of your minds; and to put on the new self, created to be like God in true righteousness and holiness.”
IT’S WHO I AM 