On any given day I’m a mother, a lawyer, an employee, a friend, a daughter and on the odd lucky day a potential crush for someone.
I start this to show you the different roles I play but more than that, the different “me” there is. I have in the last few months realised just how good I am at separating all my different roles into different lives
This started first in my friendship, I don’t know where it came from because for as long as I have been ”me” this has been a thing. I have my work friends, my church friends, my Australian friends and my African friends (all divided in the region they come from).
I started to feel this just take a toll on me. I felt tired. I remember trying to share this with a friend and they were just baffled, could relate to the facts but not the frustration.
But when God, who set me apart from my mother’s womb and called me by his grace was pleased to reveal his son in me….my immediate response was not to consult with any human being
Oh God how I’m guilty of doing this. It is definitely an area that God is still working out in me, because just 3 days ago I had myself in a ball of anxiety and needing my mother to reassure me that I should do that which I felt God calling me to do. 🙄
Back to the subject, I just discovered or rather had the full revelation of a part of me as a ‘Christian lawyer’
I had a seemingly normal day of work, went to Court and represented a client to the best of my abilities,
abiding by my oath – check.
Had a successful outcome.
satisfied client- check.
However the success of my matter depended on someone else being incarcerated. It dawned on me when I was alone in my car driving home just the impact this will have on that particular individual, now and in the future.
I thought about how one can wake up, with their whole life ahead of them, not an expectation or anticipation of the fact that their life could change by the end of that day.
Sounds inconceivable doesn’t it.
The reality of life is, the world is full of broken people, ignorant people whether wilfully or systematically and just child-like ‘adults’ incapable of understanding the simple law of cause and effect.
Needless to say my heart was immediately filled with compassion.
This made for an interesting conversations the following day when my colleagues ‘congratulated me’ and my response was but…
no I was not as happy as they thought I would be. The entire case was a big deal in of itself.
Not a single person I spoke to could understand…and it dawned on me I’m not just a lawyer…
Compassion is part of being Christ-like, being Christ-like is what, as a Christian I strive to be.
Not to undermine a non-Christian’s compassion and conscience.
The bible tells us, essentially, that Jesus came to proclaim good news to the poor, proclaim freedom to the prisoners, recovery for the blind and to set the oppressed free.
In the New Testament we hear a lot of Jesus having compassion for people and each time he does he heals, he teaches, he feeds. He doesn’t just say ‘bless their heart’ and walked away.
As the Holy Spirit reminded me of all the times I prayed to be more like Jesus to be used by God, I found myself on my knees praying for everyone involved in that matter.
I don’t know what’s going to become of me but I have a feeling the way I practice has been changed for good. I have no doubts this is where I’m called to be, this, as some people would say, was not my first rodeo, but something is changed, there’s a new player…